To My Soul Mate

Today i miss you, this is not just the average "i miss you" this is a deep almost dark longing for you and for who we will be when we are together. This is the kind of missing that sends a loud echo ringing (mind numbingly through out my soul.)  i miss you from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. i miss your fingers woven into mine. i miss your hot breath on my neck as you gently snore while dreaming of your far off adventures. i miss talking over coffee and toast. i miss watching you open the mail. Today i miss you heart and soul. i can't wait to meet you.

love,

your future wife

I won't Break Your Heart.

this made me think of you today lover. 

(can't wait to meet you.) 

Run Away With Me

Dear Husband,

Lets hide away from the world, just for the day. Lets forget about bills, babies, mothers, work, and what ever else looms over us like a little rain cloud. Lets smell each others skin, taste the fresh tooth paste with in our stolen kisses, giggle until our eyes are watering, watch black and white movies, and eat fresh baked cookies. Today we are pretending to be teenagers. Today we are playing hooky.

love,
your wife

Working it Out

Dear Husband,

i hope you like to work out... bc i hate it. But i am the type if girl that if you stay in shape... so will i. That might be a weakness.

love,
 your furture running buddy

Despite the falling snow

She tells her love while half asleep,

In the dark hours,

With half-words whispered low:

As Earth stirs in her winter sleep

And puts out grass and flowers

Despite the snow,
Despite the falling snow.

this is one of my favorite poems.

this is silly but i will know i have met the right one

when he kisses me in the snow.

(snow is my personal present.)

hopefully i see alot of it this year.

dear husband

i can't wait to kiss you in the snow.

love, me

 



Hope

"When you have lost hope, you have lost everything. And when you think all is lost, when all is dire and bleak, there is always hope."
-Pittacus Lore

to the man i will marry. 

when it comes to you all i will never lose hope. 

just don't give up on me no matter how dark 

it seems. 

you are my hope. 

Not a morning person

Dear Husband,

i hate mornings. i hate leaving the warm bed. i  will hate leaving your cuddly arms in the morning. i hope you are a morning person or at least that we own an automatic coffee maker. (just saying.)

love,
your grumpy wife

p.s. five more minutes?

These words are my heart and soul

Dear Husband,

when i say i love you i mean it. that word is not something i use lightly. that word is life to me. i don't use it to finish phone conversations or to make you feel better. i use it when i mean it. i use it so i can be true to myself. when i say i love you remember that when in saying it i give you my whole being.

love your wife.

Your Late

Dearest Husband,

today i was longing for you. it was not the normal case of  missing someone. i missed every inch of you today with every inch of me. i missed you in my brain, i missed you in my stomach, i missed you covering me with your body. the funny thing is i missed you and i don't even know who you are. lover please stop keeping me waiting.

love,
your wife.

Notes

Dear Husband,

Please read The Hunger Games Series. Take notes when it comes to Peeta. The End


Love,
Your Wife

A Letter From the Future

Dear Husband,

I loved driving around with you today. Thanks for playing the cd i made for you when we just started dating, lucky i found it in the backseat floor of our car last week!  Thanks for being you. Thanks for being my home, my love, my smile, and so much more. Also thanks for letting me rest my feet on the dashboard as you drove. You are the most amazing man i have ever met and i love when you sing the words to all my favorite song when you think i am asleep (i was pretending to sleep because i like it when you sing.)

Love,
your wife. 

The Backseat CD

(click it!)

To the Arms that Will hold me when Things go Bump in the Night!

Things That Scare Me

• 
  
  Crickets
• 
  
  You leaving me. (prove you wont everyday by waking up next to me.)  
• 
  
  Zombies (you might laugh now but when you get a late night phone call while i am driving see who has the last laugh!)
• 
  
  Turning into my mother.
• 
  
  Count Chocula (he used to live under my bed i swear!)
• 
  
  The Dark (when alone...i have a night light.)
• 
  
  Making a not so tasty Thanksgiving dinner.
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  Being in a dark bathroom (did you ever play Bloody Mary as a child?)
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  Front Doors at Night (you will laugh your arse off as i book it up the stairs and jump into our bed.)
• 
  
  Your Mother or sisters.
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  The Day after Christmas.
• 
  
  A world without coffee.

Oddly enough i am not scared of Frank the Bunny from Donnie Darko or Spiders!

To my Future Care Taker

Dear Husband,

When i am sick i am pathetic. I lay in bed all day and don't feel guilty that nothing has been cleaned around the house. i make it a point to stay in my pj's and to only drink sprite.  I demand Chinese food for EVERY meal. I refuse to take cough medicine, remind me to tell you the Manda Story one day...it will make you laugh.  i watch tons of movies, some of them girly flicks...sorry about that.   i know you can't wait to take care of your sick bum of a future wife.

really cool pj's!

Tons of love,
Your Future Care Taker. 

Rough Vows

Rough Draft of the Wedding Vows
(subject to change)


i will not shave my legs unless you shave your face.
i will cheer for your team, as long as its ok i don't understand the rules.
i will not force you to read Jane Austen or expect you to be Mr Darcy.
i will put my cold feet on your calfs on those long winter nights.
i will make it mandatory to wear pj's in the house after 5pm.
i promise to hold your hand when words fail me.
i will love you more tomorrow than i loved you today.

The List

A Silly List to the Man i Will Marry

*can you get the mail?

*lets have 2 days every month where we lay in bed and watch movies.

*can i have a Hello Kitty waffle maker?

*lunch sex? (how does that make you feel)

* silly faces always make me giggle.

*i like it when you stand behind me with your chin on top of my head.

*can we have a pillow fight soon?

*i hope you like spaghetti its my go to meal.

p.s. i can't wait to see your face when you read this. love your one day wife. (also i burnt my shins on a space heater at work today, i hope you just smiled)

You love all sailors But hate the beach.

Dear Lover,

I wish you would write me a letter telling me that your world without my smile feels as if it has been clothed in an old magicians magic cape during the darkest of nights. If I was sad and we were only to dream in darkness, then I would be the star that would lead you home. Don't forget dear you are my light you are my smile. I love you like a sailor loves the sea. Love, please don't love the sea because then you would always be leaving me, and I am scared to death of the darkness. If the sea is what you long for let me be your ocean, and let our travels defy time.

only yours,
Bee


if you could say anything what would you say?