To My Soul Mate

Today i miss you, this is not just the average "i miss you" this is a deep almost dark longing for you and for who we will be when we are together. This is the kind of missing that sends a loud echo ringing (mind numbingly through out my soul.)  i miss you from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. i miss your fingers woven into mine. i miss your hot breath on my neck as you gently snore while dreaming of your far off adventures. i miss talking over coffee and toast. i miss watching you open the mail. Today i miss you heart and soul. i can't wait to meet you.

love,

your future wife

A Sweet Treat

(i made these last night!) 

(pumpkin cupcakes, buttercream frosting, and a dash of cinnamon) 

Mr. Keats

Dear Mr. Keats, 

You have ruined me when it comes to love letters, do you think you could give my boyfriend lessons?

forever yours, 

Bee Bailey

Getting Older

But then, shall I never get any older than I am now? That'll be a comfort, one way -- never to be an old woman -- but then -- always to have lessons to learn!

-Alice in Wonderland 

Coming Home

I love to travel.  (i would be a professional  vagabond if i could.)
I love meeting new people, eating new foods, and studying the past.
To me the best part of traveling is coming home and tossing all your dirty laundry in the wash and taking a long bubble bath. I love being on the move but sometimes it just nice to be still and to listen to your body. So here is to enjoying Pumpkin Spice Soy lattes and watching movies (Spiderman & Never Let Me Go) with the boy tonight. Sometimes life can be sooo good.

The Boy

So i have a boyfriend.
He is pretty great its still kinda new, but for this time in my life he is the person i need.
He makes me happy.
(that's all i ask for when it comes to life.)
(that and he handles my crazy sad moments like a champ.)

Dance Dance

sometimes i dance like this. 

(awesome i know.) 

I am Happy

I am happy that my life is not perfect, it has made me who i am.
I am happy i know i can be single... or in a relationship.
I am happy i know how to make a killer egg sandwich.
I am happy that i am a walking contradiction.
I am happy to be me and i love the skin i am in.
Yes there are things i would change, but I'm going to have one heck of a story to tell one day.

My Mornings

One of my favorite things to do is drink coffee and read blogs. 

(this is what i did most of the morning) 

i will make today a good day. 

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

“When I was a girl, my life was music that was always getting louder. Everything moved me. A dog following a stranger. That made me feel so much. A calendar that showed the wrong month. I could have cried over it. I did. Where the smoke from a chimney ended. How an overturned bottle rested at the edge of a table. I spent my life learning to feel less. Every day I felt less. Is that growing old? Or is it something worse? You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.” -Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

I won't Break Your Heart.

this made me think of you today lover. 

(can't wait to meet you.) 

Run Away With Me

Dear Husband,

Lets hide away from the world, just for the day. Lets forget about bills, babies, mothers, work, and what ever else looms over us like a little rain cloud. Lets smell each others skin, taste the fresh tooth paste with in our stolen kisses, giggle until our eyes are watering, watch black and white movies, and eat fresh baked cookies. Today we are pretending to be teenagers. Today we are playing hooky.

love,
your wife

Dark and Twisty

out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.

kahil gibran

Working it Out

Dear Husband,

i hope you like to work out... bc i hate it. But i am the type if girl that if you stay in shape... so will i. That might be a weakness.

love,
 your furture running buddy

Thank You.

Dear World,

Thank you for sometimes not letting me have a "happily ever after." Thanks for making me strong. Thanks for giving me amazing friends. Thanks for letting me know that i can stand on my own, i know i am beautiful, and that light comes in the morning.

love,
bee

Whats to say

lets just say
i have not blogged in so long
i forgot my password...
i am awesome i know!
(also i am back)
Whats new with you?

What About You?

Dear Readers, 

I want to know. 

1.) Your favorite animal?

2.) Your Favorite time of day?

3.) The Song that best describes you?

4.) What do you love the most about yourself?

Time Well Spent

My Friday night was spent. 

cuddling with a close friend, 

telling her about rye rye mc small fry (aka my current crush.), 

complaining about school,  

laughing until i cried, 

making hot coco,

and for the first time in weeks finally feeling like i truly fit in. 

I was reminded who i am. 

(and that i should celebrate that daily.)

((and that a good laugh never hurt anyone.))  

I gave you all

	"Sometimes I wish I were bratty," said Ender. "I dream about it--about defying authority. But even when I absolutely decide to, what I can't get rid of is responsibilty. People counting on me--that's what controls me." -Ender in Exile

Life Lessons

"love like you are in high school." 

- jaclyn

Paris

Today i wish i was in Paris again. 

yes that is me. 

yes i will go back one day. 

Book One

Never Let Me Go
 by Kazuo Ishiguro

my words can not do this book justice. 
lets just say if you read it you will be haunted by its beauty. 
also i feel like Kathy H. and i are the same person. 
please read and get back to me. 


"I remind myself I was lucky to have had any time with him at all. What I'm not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete. Maybe none of us really understand what we've lived through, or feel we've had enough time."
-Kathy H. 

Fighting the Darkness

“Tell me one last thing,” said Harry. “Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?”
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?” Albus Dumbledore 


When i feel my depression coming. I remember this quote and everything seems a little less dark and i don't feel as crazy. 

Pics from my trip.

Soooo if you want to see pics from my trip to Hogwarts.... aka FL.  You can go to my facebook.  This will be a post that turns into me plugging all my social networking sites. So here it goes. :)

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1608396781
(just in the message box say you know me from blogger.)

http://twitter.com/#!/beesarahlee
(twitter.)

http://beesarahlee.tumblr.com/
(tumblr.)

You are my Sunshine

to the people in my life. thanks for being amazing. thanks for sticking with me in the good and sad times. thanks for loving me for who i am. thanks for being my great loves. (sometimes i forget i am loved.) thanks for making sure i hang on. thanks for being you. all of you are my world.

Vacation with the Brother

Day one: 
we took a two hour nap. 
after walking around. 
and most likely we will be in bed by 10. 
(we are party animals.) 
tomorrow is the first day at the theme park. 
(may the force be with my tummy.) 
(i will defeat the hulk and spider man, before breakfast.) 
oh btw we are at Universal Studios. 
pics tomorrow. 
:) 

The Almost Husband

This is to you. You were my high school sweetheart and my first love. You sadly defined who i am. You made my life bright and shinny. You were a lie. You pretended to be something you thought i needed. When all i really wanted was you. The thing i think i miss most... is your family, they are wonderful. you never appreciated them. Hopefully you will one day see how amazing they are and that you were the worlds luckiest young man to be brought up in such a loving environment. I wanted so badly to be their  family.

bee

This Year.

• Eat Organic. (or just healthy)
• Read 51 books. 
• Write my book. 
• Don't do things with "taken" guys. (please don't judge me for this, everyone has a past.) 
• Yoga 6 days a week. 
• Buy used clothes. 
• Don't be such a robot, trust people. 
• Write daily. 
• Take more pics. 
• Smile more. 
• Spend more time with friends. 
• Sew again. 

(what will you work on this year?)